Lately, I've been worried about Jude when the new little man is born. I worry about not being able to hold him as much as I do (which is frankly as often as possible). I worry that he'll feel slighted by my shared attention. The thought breaks my heart. Today, when I was putting him down for his nap, rocking him was killing my ribs and back, but I couldn't put him down. I sang him song after song when he quietly asked for "mo" and wee tears stole down my cheeks during the lullabies. Time is not on my side. Jude is growing so quickly and soon there will be another little man. I don't know how to grapple with these changes in our family, all this growing.
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You're a good mommies.
Indeed, a good mommies. There will be new joys for both of you. Drink it all in.
I told my mom I was worried about the same thing... She said it's always a miracle how love can grow so much and there is always room for more! Jude will love his little baby too!!!! Just look at Jed and Zoe! Great example! I love that he calls you mommies now! I wonder if its cuz he knows there is someone in your belly.. so now you are 2 people! hahaha! You are a WONDERFUL mother, and you of all people will have ample love to share! Can't wait to see you again, and can't wait to meet baby boy #2!
Thank goodness for those sweet times we get with our kiddos. Now you just get to share them AND you'll get to see precious brother moments that you wouldn't get before.
I know the feeling. :)
"Love is the only thing that can be divided without being diminished."
I love that quote. It is miraculous how much your heart can love, kind of inexplicable. My daughter was born 19 months after my son (we planned to have them really close) and I used to have those same feelings...but somehow, I love them both. In giving up complete one-on-one with you, though, he will also be gaining a new lifelong buddy. Just soak up the moments and enjoy each day with him - and then, with them. :)
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